Good morning joro, I am in a dilemma. I'm engaged to get married soon, but my fiancé and I are in a long distance relationship it haven't been easy but we pulling through little by little, my fiancé is in Nigeria . Throwback to few weeks I met a guy here and we got talking and we became friends, he sounded interesting.
I told my fiance about everything when I spoke to him, and his response was just be careful. So during one of my conversations with the guy , we found out that we both smoke so we just jokingly said we will share a joint one day and that was it. Yesterday evening he called me that's he's around my area can he drop by.
Joro I swear innocently I said yes sure, I didn't find anything odd about it because we talk about both our relationships we are in and life stuff and all along his approach towards me has been platonic so I didn't think anything off.
Before his call came in I was cooking and I also planned on smoking that night, I've already gotten the joint , after he came he saw the joint he was like this is perfect we could share that joint we talked about and we both laughed. After we smoked and ate, I was already tripping so I started watching cartoons and he was listening to music, so I told him he had to get going because I was starting to feel sleepy.
So he said sure that he's waiting for his Uber, all this while I was sitting on the edge of the bed, so I just slides over and lied down at the edge of the bed. He started laughing and he was like this one is tripping and I said yeah I'm zoomed. When the Uber came he was about to leave , at this point I was almost sleeping so he came over to the bed side where I was lying down and he bent over and he peck me on the cheeks and I was like whoa dude chill, I'm too high for this shit, he was in my face so I pushed him away and he laughed and came back and tried kissing me.
At this point my head was already all over the place and I was like ok maybe you should leave, he now did this weird laugh and he started coming unto me , he started touching me and trying to kiss me , I started begging like please I don't want to do this I have a fiancé that you know about but he wasn't stopping, he pinned me to the bed joro I was struggling and after like 5mjns of struggling his dick was on my legs he was trying to enter me by force, I started crying and I told him please I'm ovulating don't do this he now said I shouldn't worry he will pull out.
We struggled and I used my nails to scratch his face and he OFF me.
jumped from on top of me that's how I jumped from the bed and carried my trousers and the blanket to cover up, I told him to leave as he was leaving I blocked and deleted his number. I was molested as a child and at some point in my late teenage years joro and that incident just triggered everything I feel like a shadow of myself.
I'm scared to tell my fiancé about it, I blame myself for letting him into my space, but this is some one I trusted and I'm devastated and confused. I went to the pharmacy yesterday to buy postinor 2 , i took two packets I know it's overdose but I want to eliminate any chance of getting pregnant for this monster.
I know he didn't succeed in penetrating me but when I went to clean up I saw sperm and discharge along my laps and close to my private, I am freaking out so bad , I can't even look at my fiancé in the eye I feel like crap. I've been indoors all day and I don't know what to do.
I'm scared that even if my fiancé believes me things will never be the same, I can't lose him he's the only real thing I have joro. I am losing my mind!