Am I cursed ? Is this real love ? I'm in love with 2 married men

If you have slept with a married man and you troll me. God will punish you and your family. That's been said. Joro am In love with 2 married men. Am deeply in love with these men. I love both.

I feel guilty that am cheating on them with each other. I don't think I will marry at this point Joro.

I push single guys away. They both love me. Give me love, emotional help, Good sex. Am lacking anything in life. I thank God for both of them. But where is this going.

They have been in my life for 3 years now. Joro it feels like a real relationship. We do everything. Will I ever marry? I love this men. They both don't cheat or sleep around. They only cheap on me with their wife's and all. I am in love.

I can feel butterflies in my stomach. To God who made me am In love. I feel like am betraying them. Why will life be this complicated.