I don't even know what more to say or type.. I woke up this morning and I started with gospel music... Then I really started becoming remorse about my sin. I know I don't deserve this grace I am having now. Like apart from lying, anger, gossip and other which I commit as human.
I sat and wrote out names of guys I have had sex with. Joro they are 32 in number. Like WTF 32 guys so far. I'm not in a relationship so at times (have sex for fun when I'm horny... Since my boyfriend broke up with me I just started casual sex..
But now I'm feeling bad.. I feel worthless. I'm disappointed in myself..my dad won't believe this cause my parents trained me well, I'm the eldest child why did I ruin my life like this . I am just 20years and 2months old. And now I can't even pray anymore..
Will someone marry someday, how do I train my daughter, what do I tell her, tho I have never aborted or gotten pregnant or gotten infection cause I dont give blowjobs, I use condoms and just get the sex drive out of me.
Joro i need help I have a feeling it's a curse or something. Please let's all sit and have a rethink of our life so far and see if its bad so we can retrace.. You can all abuse me if you want, I have told myself the truth. Good morning